[X-men fic]Out of Balance Chapter 3
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Out of Balance
Chapter 3 of 10
She sat cross legged in mid air as she rearranged the reports she was reading on the hunt for Betsy’s killer. She kept listening for the sound of the jet which would mean Scott would be back with his brother Alex. She still couldn’t understand how he had survived but he’d turned up alive and contacted Scott from a coma ward where he’d been a patient since the accident that they believed killed him. She couldn’t help but smile a bit at how much like the old Scott he’d been last night when they got the news. They had actually made love for the first time in weeks but then she’d had the latest variant on that dream again.
She put her work aside and lowering her legs to the ground walked over to the bed. She’d put it off at first as just a side effect of the trauma of experiencing Betsy’s death and her mind working through her complicated situation with her husband but enough was enough she needed to get to the bottom of what her subconscious mind was trying to tell her. She laid down on the bed and went deep into her own memory of the dreams. She layered them around her in her mental work shop watching as the pattern took shape. The dream was as much the same as it was different always two of them together and the other watching. She decided to start with the first dream moving toward the version of her and Logan making love on the beach while Scott watched. She placed her hand on Logan to see what images from her mind made him up.
Professor Xavier had taught her this technique years ago to understand her own dreams by looking at the memories and feelings that made them up. As soon as she pushed beneath the surface, she yanked her hand back. This Logan didn’t come form her mind it was his actual Astral form she must have pulled him here into her head some how while she slept that night. His being taken by surprise shortly there after made a lot more sense now. She then recalled why she’d been awake to hear him leave and keep tabs on him cause of his emotional state. Her husband rushing to the bedroom after jarring her awake form this dream. She walked over to the dream image of Scott and touched him. It was the same the jarring feeling of touching a memory of an astral presence.
She quickly checked the other dreams the one where she and Scott were together and Logan watched was the same memory of their astral presences. She then checked the third variation the one that had shocked her the most Scott and Logan together. She placed her hands on them and pulled them back they had experienced that and to her shock they both had enjoyed it. She wasn’t sure if it was real enjoyment or simply what her mind wanted them to feel, but either way she found it disturbing.
She knew herself well enough to know she wouldn’t do this so she had to find out what caused this. She touched her representation in the final dream and pushed down into her own subconscious what she found startled her. She was presented with the image of the three of them together as a trio of lover sand felt her deep down desire to have them both without jealousy or problems. This wasn’t right she realized even though she could tell this desire was real she would never have acted on it. She knew her own nature enough to know that while she might wonder and even deep down fantasize she was not the type to try to act on her desires. She began to examine her own subconscious probing deeper and deeper and then she found it. A remnant of Betsy that she’d missed when she built her shrine of memories. A simple scan showed her why this part of Betsy had influenced her like this. It was Betsy’s confidence and willingness to go after what she wanted buried here in her subconscious it had made her act on her most secret forbidden desires. She was just glad she’d found it before it had begun to influence her actions while awake. She pulled it to the shrine she built and sealed it inside with the others she then did a full evaluation of herself and was shocked to find other pieces of Betsy she had missed so she gathered them as well. She awoke then back in the room to find Scott staring at her with worry clear in his eyes. “I came to get you when you didn’t meet us at the jet but you wouldn’t wake up.”
“I was doing some mental house cleaning,” She said after a moment of struggling with what to tell him. “Look Scott there are some things we need to talk about but they can wait until after the party to welcome your brother.” She had to decide exactly how much to tell him and how much to tell Logan. “Let’s go to the party.”
He seemed about to ask but then nodded. As Happy as she was to have Alex back the problem of what to tell Scott and Logan kept bothering her all night perhaps because she was worried she watched their interactions and noticed a distinct reluctance to be near each other on both their parts. She also noticed that Scott was avoiding Warren quiet a bit and thinking back she realized it had been going on ever since Warren’s secondary mutation kicked in and restored his natural skin tone.
“Are you all right Jean,” Charles said from beside her shocking her out of her thoughts. “You do not seem to be your usual self tonight.” She realized she could talk to Charles about things and he would understand.
“Can I speak with you alone, Charles,” She asked and he nodded. As they slipped out of the party, she felt two pairs of eyes on her but didn’t turn around. She couldn’t face the curious stares from Scott and Logan yet.
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“You put up a better fight than Psylocke Rogue but alas you die to prevent the future your step mother saw,” He said running the blade through Rogue and watching as the life drained from her. He frowned this was wrong, and he has not accomplished this yet.
“Sorry to intrude upon your dreams but I thought we should speak,” A female voice said and he turned to see Psylocke standing there. “Forgive the form but I am rather attached to it for the moment.”
“Who and what are you?” He asked secure in the knowledge that if this was a dream then this creature could not harm him no matter what form they wore. The image of Psylocke walked over to look down at Rogue.
“So this is what you wish to accomplish to prevent a prophecy that will only occur if you actually fight her,” Psylocke said looking down. “How disappointing when you freed me by killing her it made me think there would be so much more to you.” Her body turned back toward him and smiled. “In answer to your question I am the Shadow King and I will make a deal with you kill Jean Grey Summers for me and I will kill Rogue so you don’t have to face her.”
“I do not let others fight my battles for me,” He said dismissing the man in front of him. “Begone creature you have nothing to offer me.” He could see the hate the creature had clearly expressed in Psylocke’s face but then it just smiled.
“You will regret not taking me up on this deal Vargas,” The thing in Psylocke said darkly. “You will regret this think of me when your dying.” The body of Psylocke vanished then and he awoke to find himself asleep in his own bed. He was not concerned with the threats only tracking down the X-men to finish what he started and end the threat Rogue posed to him.
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“What is bothering you Jean,” He asked once they had arrived in his office. He had been sensing her turmoil all evening and was glad she was willing to speak with him. He hoped it was not further problems with Scott as he was ill equipped to help in those matters.
“I should have told you this from the beginning but I didn’t just get my Telekinesis restored by Betsy’s death,” Jean looked away. “I also got a dose of her memory that I found early on and sealed away.” Jean looked back at him. “But recently I learned I also gained pieces of her personality that began to influence me.”
“How have you been influenced,” He asked concerned. Jean was potentially the most powerful telepath in the universe if she were to be unbalanced the results could be terrible. “Jean, you can talk to me about anything.”
“I know that Charles,” Jean said. “I’m just having trouble finding the words, for week since Betsy died I’ve been having very vivid dreams involving Scott and Logan.” She radiated embarrassment so he decided not to ask about the content of those drams. “While examining them today to find out their meaning I discovered they weren’t just dreams.” She looked down. “I was pulling Scott and Logan into my head at night and making them act out things I fantasized about deep in my subconscious.” She looked back up. “I’ve solved the problem but now I don’t know if I should tell Scott and Logan or not.” She put her hands together. “I can’t help but feel it might be better if they simply think it was a week of strange dreams and get on with their lives.”
“Jean, I believe you should tell them eventually, they have a right to know,” He said gently. “However, I do not believe now is the best time let them have a few days with their nights returned to normal before you tell them.” He was suggesting that more for her sake he did not think she could deal with telling them now.
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Out of Balance
Chapter 3 of 10
She sat cross legged in mid air as she rearranged the reports she was reading on the hunt for Betsy’s killer. She kept listening for the sound of the jet which would mean Scott would be back with his brother Alex. She still couldn’t understand how he had survived but he’d turned up alive and contacted Scott from a coma ward where he’d been a patient since the accident that they believed killed him. She couldn’t help but smile a bit at how much like the old Scott he’d been last night when they got the news. They had actually made love for the first time in weeks but then she’d had the latest variant on that dream again.
She put her work aside and lowering her legs to the ground walked over to the bed. She’d put it off at first as just a side effect of the trauma of experiencing Betsy’s death and her mind working through her complicated situation with her husband but enough was enough she needed to get to the bottom of what her subconscious mind was trying to tell her. She laid down on the bed and went deep into her own memory of the dreams. She layered them around her in her mental work shop watching as the pattern took shape. The dream was as much the same as it was different always two of them together and the other watching. She decided to start with the first dream moving toward the version of her and Logan making love on the beach while Scott watched. She placed her hand on Logan to see what images from her mind made him up.
Professor Xavier had taught her this technique years ago to understand her own dreams by looking at the memories and feelings that made them up. As soon as she pushed beneath the surface, she yanked her hand back. This Logan didn’t come form her mind it was his actual Astral form she must have pulled him here into her head some how while she slept that night. His being taken by surprise shortly there after made a lot more sense now. She then recalled why she’d been awake to hear him leave and keep tabs on him cause of his emotional state. Her husband rushing to the bedroom after jarring her awake form this dream. She walked over to the dream image of Scott and touched him. It was the same the jarring feeling of touching a memory of an astral presence.
She quickly checked the other dreams the one where she and Scott were together and Logan watched was the same memory of their astral presences. She then checked the third variation the one that had shocked her the most Scott and Logan together. She placed her hands on them and pulled them back they had experienced that and to her shock they both had enjoyed it. She wasn’t sure if it was real enjoyment or simply what her mind wanted them to feel, but either way she found it disturbing.
She knew herself well enough to know she wouldn’t do this so she had to find out what caused this. She touched her representation in the final dream and pushed down into her own subconscious what she found startled her. She was presented with the image of the three of them together as a trio of lover sand felt her deep down desire to have them both without jealousy or problems. This wasn’t right she realized even though she could tell this desire was real she would never have acted on it. She knew her own nature enough to know that while she might wonder and even deep down fantasize she was not the type to try to act on her desires. She began to examine her own subconscious probing deeper and deeper and then she found it. A remnant of Betsy that she’d missed when she built her shrine of memories. A simple scan showed her why this part of Betsy had influenced her like this. It was Betsy’s confidence and willingness to go after what she wanted buried here in her subconscious it had made her act on her most secret forbidden desires. She was just glad she’d found it before it had begun to influence her actions while awake. She pulled it to the shrine she built and sealed it inside with the others she then did a full evaluation of herself and was shocked to find other pieces of Betsy she had missed so she gathered them as well. She awoke then back in the room to find Scott staring at her with worry clear in his eyes. “I came to get you when you didn’t meet us at the jet but you wouldn’t wake up.”
“I was doing some mental house cleaning,” She said after a moment of struggling with what to tell him. “Look Scott there are some things we need to talk about but they can wait until after the party to welcome your brother.” She had to decide exactly how much to tell him and how much to tell Logan. “Let’s go to the party.”
He seemed about to ask but then nodded. As Happy as she was to have Alex back the problem of what to tell Scott and Logan kept bothering her all night perhaps because she was worried she watched their interactions and noticed a distinct reluctance to be near each other on both their parts. She also noticed that Scott was avoiding Warren quiet a bit and thinking back she realized it had been going on ever since Warren’s secondary mutation kicked in and restored his natural skin tone.
“Are you all right Jean,” Charles said from beside her shocking her out of her thoughts. “You do not seem to be your usual self tonight.” She realized she could talk to Charles about things and he would understand.
“Can I speak with you alone, Charles,” She asked and he nodded. As they slipped out of the party, she felt two pairs of eyes on her but didn’t turn around. She couldn’t face the curious stares from Scott and Logan yet.
____
“You put up a better fight than Psylocke Rogue but alas you die to prevent the future your step mother saw,” He said running the blade through Rogue and watching as the life drained from her. He frowned this was wrong, and he has not accomplished this yet.
“Sorry to intrude upon your dreams but I thought we should speak,” A female voice said and he turned to see Psylocke standing there. “Forgive the form but I am rather attached to it for the moment.”
“Who and what are you?” He asked secure in the knowledge that if this was a dream then this creature could not harm him no matter what form they wore. The image of Psylocke walked over to look down at Rogue.
“So this is what you wish to accomplish to prevent a prophecy that will only occur if you actually fight her,” Psylocke said looking down. “How disappointing when you freed me by killing her it made me think there would be so much more to you.” Her body turned back toward him and smiled. “In answer to your question I am the Shadow King and I will make a deal with you kill Jean Grey Summers for me and I will kill Rogue so you don’t have to face her.”
“I do not let others fight my battles for me,” He said dismissing the man in front of him. “Begone creature you have nothing to offer me.” He could see the hate the creature had clearly expressed in Psylocke’s face but then it just smiled.
“You will regret not taking me up on this deal Vargas,” The thing in Psylocke said darkly. “You will regret this think of me when your dying.” The body of Psylocke vanished then and he awoke to find himself asleep in his own bed. He was not concerned with the threats only tracking down the X-men to finish what he started and end the threat Rogue posed to him.
____
“What is bothering you Jean,” He asked once they had arrived in his office. He had been sensing her turmoil all evening and was glad she was willing to speak with him. He hoped it was not further problems with Scott as he was ill equipped to help in those matters.
“I should have told you this from the beginning but I didn’t just get my Telekinesis restored by Betsy’s death,” Jean looked away. “I also got a dose of her memory that I found early on and sealed away.” Jean looked back at him. “But recently I learned I also gained pieces of her personality that began to influence me.”
“How have you been influenced,” He asked concerned. Jean was potentially the most powerful telepath in the universe if she were to be unbalanced the results could be terrible. “Jean, you can talk to me about anything.”
“I know that Charles,” Jean said. “I’m just having trouble finding the words, for week since Betsy died I’ve been having very vivid dreams involving Scott and Logan.” She radiated embarrassment so he decided not to ask about the content of those drams. “While examining them today to find out their meaning I discovered they weren’t just dreams.” She looked down. “I was pulling Scott and Logan into my head at night and making them act out things I fantasized about deep in my subconscious.” She looked back up. “I’ve solved the problem but now I don’t know if I should tell Scott and Logan or not.” She put her hands together. “I can’t help but feel it might be better if they simply think it was a week of strange dreams and get on with their lives.”
“Jean, I believe you should tell them eventually, they have a right to know,” He said gently. “However, I do not believe now is the best time let them have a few days with their nights returned to normal before you tell them.” He was suggesting that more for her sake he did not think she could deal with telling them now.
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